new blog...

Well i am thinks about starting a new blog or just starting this one over. I keep seeing all of these wonderful blogs that are dedicated to new babies or weddings ect, that's what i wanted when i started this but it didn't happen bc it too a trun to ranting! so none of that any more. I just need to update more often, and actually have something exciting happen.

i need to blog....

happy late anniversary to me. it did not go as planned, which was probably my fault. i am really upset and very confused on what happened that next night. I dunno what i would have done ether way, but i feel as if it was my fault and i really would have been happy if things didn't happened as they did, i am so sad i don't have anyone to honestly talk to. I don't know how to fill this emptiness i feel. i dont want to do anything but find a reason why, just running to the store makes me sad, i dont have the energy to clean, cook, get dressed.......... i feel in a daze, but i cannot be bc i have to take care of everyone else myself comes last.....

happy fall!

I love fall! it is so nice outside today! But i wish i was moving..... blah!
anyways i found a awsome vintage baby stroller this weekend! Lookie!

i suck!

now i realize i am afraid to move! I strongly dislike change. I am scared to death to move.... the was i first "home" I don't want to leave it now, as much as i hate it.....

okay i am pissed!!

Why in the hell am I the only one who ever does anything??? I have 4 days to move out of this house, yet I have nowhere else to live! i feel like crap bc i told a lady we where going to buy her house & now she is holding it and we have not called her back! hmmmm wonder why.... Bc lynz has done all she can it is someones else turn to get off their ass and do something. Ha but that will nave happen, guess i will be blogging from the homeless shelter next time.

why am i so sleepy????

K i think i have the fever again.... baby fever that is. I know we cannot afford it, but gosh I want 1 more before i get much older. I can not sto[p going to baby name genie.com i keep doing polls on name because i want this one to be done completely right. so I am going to take the time to make a list of things to do before i have another baby.

1. get a new house, preferably the one on Eastern Vally road.
2. Potty train Lily
3. Buy a bigger car.
4. Sell the civic.
5. Go to a real football game.
6. go to New Orleans.
7. Have a real beach trip & birthday party.
8. go to Tennessee for Christmas.
9. buy a cocker spaniel & pug puppy.

K guess that's about it, now maybe my fever will go away for a while.

almost my b-day!

Hey jut wanted to update a bit. Well all the kids are great, Lou starts 2nd grade soon. Pace is so ready to go to school, i hate that he cannot go yet, but he can write his name by himself now! Lillian has gotten so BIG! But still not walking yet, she loves to dance, i think she tries sing also. I hate that they grow up so fast!
Well i have lost a little over 20lbs, but i think i want it back! Guess i better get going now, night.