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The truth is I have no f'ing clue! I could list facts about myself all day but there is enough of that over here.

I was divorced once in '05 and my #1 phrase to run with was I had to find "me" again. But the problem is "me" has gotten older, lazier, and fatter. And the old "me" is lost. I have this I don't care attitude about everything. I think that is just me resorting to being 13 again. I care, hell I care a little too much. I just hope everyone knows that. I don't think I have and will say it out loud to anyone. Except my kids. I don't feel close to anyone but them and after this year I am afraid to be close to anyone. I have no clue what this post is supposed to say/mean. I guess I will take a shop at finding "me" one more time. If I fail in 2012. Screw it.

L I N D S A Y

I have spent 27 years...(I think) trying to figure out who I am.

Style

Life

Religion

Heart

Home

  

The truth is I have no f'ing clue! I could list facts about myself all day but there is enough of that over here.

I was divorced once in '05 and my #1 phrase to run with was I had to find "me" again. But the problem is "me" has gotten older, lazier, and fatter. And the old "me" is lost. I have this I don't care attitude about everything. I think that is just me resorting to being 13 again. I care, hell I care a little too much. I just hope everyone knows that. I don't think I have and will say it out loud to anyone. Except my kids. I don't feel close to anyone but them and after this year I am afraid to be close to anyone. I have no clue what this post is supposed to say/mean. I guess I will take a shop at finding "me" one more time. If I fail in 2012. Screw it.

GOODBYE 2011!!

I never thought I would love and hate a day so much. I have been begging for 2012 for months and now it is closely approaching I might cry. This has been the hardest year of my life and I have just sat around bitching about it. But I have to stop it, today. I hate resolutions and who the hell ever keeps them?... So I am just going to make a list of things I am going to do in 2012 with a little help from Pinterest

1. Care about myself

Joan via Tumblr

2. Wear pin curls in and don't pull my hair back before I walk in the store

Pin Curls via Vixen Vintage

3. Finish what I started. 6 months ago we bought this house.. Needless to say my kitchen looks 80% the same as it did here minus the lack of a counter top and 1/2 of the floor 

Kitchen New house

4. Dance in the rain! I use to do this every time it rained, one of the reasons I do not own and umbrella but lately I have just duck and ran. Next time I will slow down.

repinned no orginal

5. Get a new piercing

6. Live life like Lily! Just check out that rockin headband she wore it with everything for a week because she loves it.

7. Wear my own things, I have a pretty nice size vintage collection but I Never wear any of it out of the house. I love every piece I own but I don't want to "stand out" in my tiny town

Earrings I scored in November 

8. Take more pictures!! This was my only photo on last years 365

my 366

 9. Learn to blog and do it quickly! No joke I have been fighting with this one post for two days and this has taken me all day.

10. Be Happy! 

There are so many sad and upsetting things going on around me right now and every day I have a major freak out. I just need to stop, breath and be happy, 

GOODBYE 2011!!

I never thought I would love and hate a day so much. I have been begging for 2012 for months and now it is closely approaching I might cry. This has been the hardest year of my life and I have just sat around bitching about it. But I have to stop it, today. I hate resolutions and who the hell ever keeps them?... So I am just going to make a list of things I am going to do in 2012 with a little help from Pinterest

1. Care about myself

Joan via Tumblr

2. Wear pin curls in and don't pull my hair back before I walk in the store

Pin Curls via Vixen Vintage

3. Finish what I started. 6 months ago we bought this house.. Needless to say my kitchen looks 80% the same as it did here minus the lack of a counter top and 1/2 of the floor 

Kitchen New house

4. Dance in the rain! I use to do this every time it rained, one of the reasons I do not own and umbrella but lately I have just duck and ran. Next time I will slow down.

repinned no orginal

5. Get a new piercing

6. Live life like Lily! Just check out that rockin headband she wore it with everything for a week because she loves it.

7. Wear my own things, I have a pretty nice size vintage collection but I Never wear any of it out of the house. I love every piece I own but I don't want to "stand out" in my tiny town

Earrings I scored in November 

8. Take more pictures!! This was my only photo on last years 365

my 366

 9. Learn to blog and do it quickly! No joke I have been fighting with this one post for two days and this has taken me all day.

10. Be Happy! 

There are so many sad and upsetting things going on around me right now and every day I have a major freak out. I just need to stop, breath and be happy, 

It looks a little like Christmas...

      I am so not feeling the Christmas spirit this year, not sure if it is because I am flat broke or because my mom's 50th would have been Dec 26th. But I figured I would share a few photos of Christmas 2011 at our new house. The house if far from "done" but I hope to paint these ugly white walls around the new year.

vintage records 

My dads candles and mr. and mrs. clause i found at my grandmothers 

my grandmother ceramics 

kids art work from school

Vintage tree jars my mom kept these filled with kisses

Vintage tree #1 with shiny brites! 

  We have 3 full size trees up, yes 3! But for some reason picasa does not like me this month. Happy Holidays!

It looks a little like Christmas...

      I am so not feeling the Christmas spirit this year, not sure if it is because I am flat broke or because my mom's 50th would have been Dec 26th. But I figured I would share a few photos of Christmas 2011 at our new house. The house if far from "done" but I hope to paint these ugly white walls around the new year.

vintage records 

My dads candles and mr. and mrs. clause i found at my grandmothers 

my grandmother ceramics 

kids art work from school

Vintage tree jars my mom kept these filled with kisses

Vintage tree #1 with shiny brites! 

  We have 3 full size trees up, yes 3! But for some reason picasa does not like me this month. Happy Holidays!

Pssh-Pssh people

        Do you ever have random strangers ask you random questions? I usually answer them back with some random bs  sweet motherly comment or keep walking because I have more things to do than get stuck in a long conversation with a random stranger. 

             Here are a few of the many questions I have been asked.

Did you Have all those kids?.. (eyes wide open)

Nope! I went to the super market store and picked them all out. 

  Yes, I have 4 children and they all come from my body.

Did you plan/choose to have two boys and two girls?..

Why yes when I went to the super market doctor he asked what preference I had. So each time I said Girl, Boy, Girl, Boy lets make it even.

 I am sure You know the real answer to this question.

Where is you husband? (yes people ask this)

Who, what? I told you I bought these kids at the market why would I have a husband!?! 

  He is usually at work during the day and sleeping at night or trying to get ready for work bc he has to leave home at 4:45-5 am everyday.

Are you done?!? I honestly answer this one; Yes! cut tied and burned. 

I could never afford any more kids and am not in the mood to call TLC so I can build a bigger house. 

Where are you from? Umm here...  

For some reason people think I am not from the south? I guess if I don't sport any camo or have Alabama signs on my car so they can't tell.

How old are you? (This is when I have no kids in tow just the baby with me) Old as dirt lets see I have an 11 year old so I can buy this rated R dvd of Halloween but I have no clue of my age. Can you do math?  

Why does she talk so much? (Asked about me from those '"Pssh-Pssh" types to other random people sitting next to them)   SECRETS DON'T MAKE FRIENDS! 

     I don't really mind people asking questions because heck, how are you supposed to learn anything if you never ask anything has to be better than the "Pssh-Pssh" people.

*This post was written for Mama Kat's Writers Workshop prompt.*

 "Create an FAQ page for yourself that answers frequently asked questions if people were to frequently ask you questions. People make those up all the time. YOUR TURN!"