new blog...

Well i am thinks about starting a new blog or just starting this one over. I keep seeing all of these wonderful blogs that are dedicated to new babies or weddings ect, that's what i wanted when i started this but it didn't happen bc it too a trun to ranting! so none of that any more. I just need to update more often, and actually have something exciting happen.

i need to blog....

happy late anniversary to me. it did not go as planned, which was probably my fault. i am really upset and very confused on what happened that next night. I dunno what i would have done ether way, but i feel as if it was my fault and i really would have been happy if things didn't happened as they did, i am so sad i don't have anyone to honestly talk to. I don't know how to fill this emptiness i feel. i dont want to do anything but find a reason why, just running to the store makes me sad, i dont have the energy to clean, cook, get dressed.......... i feel in a daze, but i cannot be bc i have to take care of everyone else myself comes last.....